die die die.. i'm so gonna die this friday.

i'm A/H at Top Table and there's proficiency test. i'm so suck at SSM.

i havent been to 2 SSM lsns before the term break and i was absent too for the practice class during sch break. i know nth abt setting tables, clearing tables and serving others. i'm so f*cked up.

i just felt like stabbing myself in the heart and let it bled till i die. i'm so afraid and biased against SSM for some shit reason. Cos i hate waitressing, but thats one of the skills i gotta learn since i'm a H&T student!

but damn me, i just couldnt pluck up any courage to face the reality. i cant run away forever, but i'll just fluck my test. damn me. i hate myself, seriously.

i dunno how to let out all the stuff tts bothering me, i'll just burst one day, and the day seems near. Someone help please, i'm tearing apart.

jerr-
11:27 PM

there was this nice nice rainbow outside my house a few days ago, it was a clear rainbow, i could see the red, yellow. blue colours.. haha so nice! and it fits the colour of the sky too!!


oh i went swimming with joan on monday! the sun wasnt very strong, but i got a lil tanned la.. the irritating thing is my back was evenly tanned, but my stomach wasnt the same tan colour as my back! it's like lighter.. grrrr..

we swam like 12 laps in the pool, i've nv felt so nice before, haha, i think cos i finally exercised. ha then went to the library, yes u didnt see wrongly! I WENT TO THE LIBRARY! to borrow books on dubai la.. but well, nth was found there although they were not on loan, thats the thing i hate abt libraries.

and guess wad! the sky was soooooooo scary when i step out..

it looks abit like... erm.. i dunno how to describe it. haha!

went to some ulu library at bukit merah( i think!) today and i got all the books i needed for my dubai!! hahahahaha and i found one dive guide.. so cool, i wanna start diving soooooon!!

i'm hardworking eh!



oooh, the days are passing quickly, i wanna learn driving soooooon!!!!!!!!!


oh let me end off with a randomn one, looks like sth is boiling underneath, things aint gg well..

jerr-
3:27 AM

i have a feeling my head will just burst soon, really soon.

i've been getting my headaches frequently, or well almost everyday. i know it could be due to the irregular timings i have, but urrhh, i tried to switch back alr.

i know the life i'm having now is bad, i sleep at 4am and wakes up at 2pm the nxt day. but i've been slpin early these few days alr, from as early as 10pm. i tried switching my timing back, so i slept at 10 on thurs, i wanted to wake up at like 9 sth, but what the hell! i woke up at 2 without my knowing it at all.

i cant seem to wake up when i want to. i hope nth's happening to me. oh and those #$%^&* contractors are drilling my head off with their constant drilling and knocking and whatever la at the 6th floor for two weeks alr.

i've been like getting constant bodyaches here and there with some never ending sneezing, i shld exercise soon, yea wait till my shoes are here, i have special feets, so i need special shoes to run, if not i'll just exercise on the wheelchair then.

okay, lets hope for a better and healthier jiamin back.

jerr-
1:30 PM

i'm here again. haha!

i'm so tired with all the research, so decided to take a break and flee here to blog!

just finish listening to the last episode of yyrj and ssey, just happen to find tt cd tt queen burn for me i think. haha! i miss those times seriously. i've decided to do sth for ma, but its gonna be hard work i think!

these few days has been funny, i met up with both my sec sch and pri sch friends. it was like great la! tues night was with ym,naima,manel, boon & elvis, it was a surprise for ym. she's still as loud as before, we could hear her scream from 13th floor, not bad huh! we arranged lightsticks into happy bday in chi on the road below her block and asked her to look down. then she screamed! we could hear her la.. haha!

it was a short meet up, but fun la, i miss those times.. haha!

today night was with 6/1 peeps, it has been years since i saw them la! no one changed la i think, we all still look the same after 6 years. haha! dinner at billy bombers, i was damn full la! dunno why. haha

i think it was a great gathering la, and i recieved my first bday present from gavan! hahahahah he drew happy birthday and a huge cake for me on the tissue paper. hahahaha, wait till our next meet up with ms swee!

i kinda miss those times i had last time, all the innocent and pure love between all of us. no backstabbing, no tears, no misunderstandings, no quarrels, only pure love. seriously.

is it that as one grows older, more things starts to pile up, and no more of havin innocent life?

i dunno, i just hope everyth clears off soon, afterall, we're all loving the same person isnt it?

oh she said my ET shirt was cute!!!(: dinner nxt time k gal?(:

jerr-
3:06 AM

yea another entry today again!!!!

oh happy 7th anniversary my dear ahzi! it has been 7 years since she stepped into the circle, it has been 5 long years of chasing. These number of years will keep on counting like how the time would never stop.i swear (:

oh i baked raspberry cheese brownies today, aint that nice as compared to those professionally made, but its nice and edible! it doesnt look very appealing, but the taste is nice, i promise.haha! thanks to those who came over to help out with the baking of those brownies for her.


it looks like those fudging choc brownies right?


i'm proud of it!!


half for her, half for us (:

things has been getting confusing lately. well i'm sure it will get well soon after the mist is cleared, or when we start to take a closer look at the people ard us. We have to learn to be responsible of our own actions. Sometimes what you do might just pissed people off, sometimes it must just triggle off the start of a misunderstanding.

woah, i sound like the other her.

jerr-
1:13 AM

you know, its rare that i update here. or rather update any of my blogs.ha

i've been letting my brain free these few days, i'll think of anyth under the sun, from what will i look like if i become an air stewardess to some serious thinking of what do i really want now.

of cos some people say u can know a person by looking at what she wants, and you'll know how the person is. i shall list down what i want, then let anyone who passes by this entry to decide what kinda person i am.

i want:
some big cuddly bear which i can hug fully
when there's no one ard for u to cry on or hug, u can go squeeze that big bear.haha!

one big bright coloured bag
so that i wun get knocked down by cars, i'm so scared of the roads la!

plenty of shorts
i realise i only have 3 pairs of long pants. heh heh, i hate my legs to be covered.

alot of pictures taken and developed
i love my room to be filled with pictures taken randomly, i even said i wanted a poloraid cam.

the people i love to be happy
i'm sure everyone thinks the same way ba i hope!

see the people i love laugh at my stupid jokes
its nice to see others laugh and smile cos of u right? i think so la.

misunderstandings to be cleared
this is just very randomn

aiyo this is like so randomn la, okay pardon me for this randomn entry. haha! so what kind of person do u think i am???? (:

thats not all the things that i want la, still got alot more.. hahahahha

jerr-
12:45 AM